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Someone riddle me this fucking nightmare that I had last night.

I dreamt so much again but this is the one that stuck in me. I mean stuck with me. That little slip was in no way an indication of what the nightmare was about lol.

So I got shot in my brain, and I don’t know if you guys have those dreams where something hurts and you can actually feel the pain even though you are 100% positive you never experienced that kind of pain before, but I do. Most times I’m pregnant and I feel a pregnancy pain and it’s just a pain I’ve never experienced in real life no matter from what, and also I have no way of knowing if actual pregnancy pain is like that.

But anyway, I got shot in my head, through my forehead, I can actually pinpoint the actual spot where and it fucking hurt. And I could get up and I was thinking, oh it must take a long time for me to bleed out, cause it didn’t explode my brain so it must be just bleeding out, cool. And I was I think in my high school but then I wasn’t there for the rest of my dream, and I was walking around and I was thinking how I should say goodbye to my family and friends but then I never died. And I could still feel this absolute terrible pain in my head and whenever I moved it got worse, and it made me wonder if it went straight through and somehow didn’t harm anything that was crucial to… living I guess, or if it got lodged inside my brain somehow, you hear of people like that, in real life, on movies, who have bullets stuck in their brains, right?

And so that was my fucking dream, just me wandering around with a bullet in my brain in a kind of pain I’ve never experienced before, wondering if I should say goodbye to my loved ones cause I’m gonna die or if I should look for a fucking doctor to take out the bullet lodged into my brain.

are you ever like, “hm this day is weird, i feel weird” and then you laugh out loud at something and you realise like “holy shit, im actually experiencing a positive emotion” cause ur depression is like “ok u can have this one” but you can’t even be happy for it completely cause you experience it so little it just registers as “weird” in your brain?

When you ask your co-worker to get something from someone’s house where that someone’s sister will meet him to give your co-worker that something, and your co-worker tells you to phone the sister and tell her to meet him at the house any time before 3PM so you tell her to meet your co-worker at 2:30PM and your co-worker gets mad at you cause it’s way too close to 3PM which is the end of his shift, and then you have to spell it out to him that if 2:30PM isn’t a good time for him he shouldn’t hae told you to tell her a time any time before 3PM.

I dreamt that we were going to a NBT concert with my mum but she took forever to get ready and I wasn’t even sure if we could fit inside the venue cause I saw it beforehand and it was tiny and I was right, we didn’t fit and I had to be like in this one place with a weird oil barrel fire that was like a campsite of sorts but then Conor did appear there cause he was having a photoshoot and one of my friends kept bothering him for a selfie (which she got, mind you x)).

And then in another dream I was at a convenience store and then I was at home but it was a weird place with another campfire and there were two puppy dogs and one of them wasn’t mine but someone else’s who also lived there but they were a supernatural being and I was afraid of when they’d come home in case they would take the puppies away.