Tag: dreamingoutloud

The other day dreamt that I tried to sneak into an old student hostel where I lived (but it looked different) and I acted like I belonged there so I could spend the night in town but I was so paranoid that someone would bust me x) And then I also dreamt that I was in bed with Liam O’Brien (we were playing dnd ok o_O, nothing naughty) and there was a huge spider above us on the ceiling and I wanted to kill it but Liam kept making fun of me for being scared of a spider.

And then I also dreamt that I was in a huge and sunny city that had a bunch of wide rivers going all across it and it was like going above and under these huge highways and I was like on a bicycle that is also a boat, idk it felt awesome.

I dreamt that I had to travel to Germany for a work thing for a month for like a training or whatever and the day I was supposed to leave I was late with packing and going to the train station and then I just decided I didn’t want to go so I tried to come up with any reason not to go but the whole thing was already paid for so I would’ve had to pay it back to my workplace, and then my form master was there as I was trying to escape from Budapest so I didn’t have to travel to Germany, and anyway a lot of nightmare-ish crap happened that I don’t want to talk about but I wish I could stop dreaming about my dead form master lol

I dreamt that my grandpa and I were driving to a beach(?) but the traffic was so weird like motorcycles in the opposite-going lane kept coming over to ours and we had to swerve to avoid them and they kept falling over and going off road right until one was coming straight at us and we both swerved and the motorcyclist drove off the road and crashed into the garage of a house that was right by the road and we drove off too in the same direction but stopped on the frontyard. The motorcyclist got injured and there were a bunch of people around and my grandpa got injured as well but not too severely. It was implied by the family the garage belonged to that because of all the weird motorcycles driving like mad 911 must be getting a lot of calls so we shouldn’t expect them to come fast because there must be several other injuries that need more urgent care, we still decided to call 911 and I offered to do it.

But somehow I was so disoriented in my dream I didn’t even know which village we were in and had to find street signs but then I got lost and said the wrong location then I hung up to look for better directions and then I couldn’t reach them again, plus then this guy who lived in that house came up to me and it was long dark by then when I tried to call my mum to tell her about the accident and she asked how the beach was and I tried to like explain what happened but I felt so weird I couldn’t form words properly. So then this guy came up to me and tried to like, threaten me or scare me out of calling for help but then he left and idk what happened after that, it was just weird.

Someone riddle me this fucking nightmare that I had last night.

I dreamt so much again but this is the one that stuck in me. I mean stuck with me. That little slip was in no way an indication of what the nightmare was about lol.

So I got shot in my brain, and I don’t know if you guys have those dreams where something hurts and you can actually feel the pain even though you are 100% positive you never experienced that kind of pain before, but I do. Most times I’m pregnant and I feel a pregnancy pain and it’s just a pain I’ve never experienced in real life no matter from what, and also I have no way of knowing if actual pregnancy pain is like that.

But anyway, I got shot in my head, through my forehead, I can actually pinpoint the actual spot where and it fucking hurt. And I could get up and I was thinking, oh it must take a long time for me to bleed out, cause it didn’t explode my brain so it must be just bleeding out, cool. And I was I think in my high school but then I wasn’t there for the rest of my dream, and I was walking around and I was thinking how I should say goodbye to my family and friends but then I never died. And I could still feel this absolute terrible pain in my head and whenever I moved it got worse, and it made me wonder if it went straight through and somehow didn’t harm anything that was crucial to… living I guess, or if it got lodged inside my brain somehow, you hear of people like that, in real life, on movies, who have bullets stuck in their brains, right?

And so that was my fucking dream, just me wandering around with a bullet in my brain in a kind of pain I’ve never experienced before, wondering if I should say goodbye to my loved ones cause I’m gonna die or if I should look for a fucking doctor to take out the bullet lodged into my brain.

I dreamt that we were going to a NBT concert with my mum but she took forever to get ready and I wasn’t even sure if we could fit inside the venue cause I saw it beforehand and it was tiny and I was right, we didn’t fit and I had to be like in this one place with a weird oil barrel fire that was like a campsite of sorts but then Conor did appear there cause he was having a photoshoot and one of my friends kept bothering him for a selfie (which she got, mind you x)).

And then in another dream I was at a convenience store and then I was at home but it was a weird place with another campfire and there were two puppy dogs and one of them wasn’t mine but someone else’s who also lived there but they were a supernatural being and I was afraid of when they’d come home in case they would take the puppies away.

I dreamt that Tom Smith was giving a solo concert where he would play his own songs from his solo project to be released soon and it was held at a school and naturally I went, and we set at these school desks that were really weird but anyway, the concert started and the first song was this nice instrumental one and then Tom played another one that had singing but I don’t remember much of it.

Anyway the dream turned weird when he started questioning us after the song o_o Like about the themes of the song and the deeper meaning or whatever. I was thinking how stupid it is cause nobody goes to a concert to loudly voice their analysis after every song and I felt sorry for everyone who was forced to speak up cause then the mood became so tense and shit, like Tom refused to keep playing until we gave him the good answer x) And I even said that I wasn’t even paying attention to the lyrics cause I was just really happy to hear new music.

So then he was like okay well I’ll play it again and then we’ll go through this again. And then that time the song had Hungarian lyrics for some reason, whatever. That’s when I decided to ditch the room like I thought I’d come back later when hopefully we’ve moved onto the next song but it was like half past nine by that point. Annnnyway I walked around the school a bit that also had some weird stuff but it’s pointless to remember what, so when I went back to the classroom I entered a few that weren’t the right ones, and for some reason there were still classes at 10PM.

And then I found the concert room but it was almost empty and there was a real teacher by the blackboard like writing down stuff on it. I asked the few remaining people what happened and they said, someone I actually knew but I no longer remember who it was, that Tom was offended by me leaving so he just stopped the concert altogether.

I was like, well geez if it’s so important to him that everybody sits through his shitty concert then maybe he shouldn’t make it shitty, and then I thought about writing to him on twitter but he no longer uses twitter.

I was so upset that he disappointed me a few months before the new album and the birthday concert x)

I dreamt that I wanted to kill iDubbbz and his girlfriend (in a video game, don’t worry) but I liked iDubbbz so much in person that I started feeling guilty and I didn’t kill them. But then the girl found something in my bag that implied I wanted to kill them and then I had to explain that I changed my mind because iDubbbz was such a nice person (which is why I should’ve known from the beginning that this was a dream).

I think because I had to give up my place at the NBT concert last Friday I had this dream last night that I was seeing Editors (actually, just Tom) and he was talking about how long it’s been since their last album and his hair was long like in the AEHAS era, and then he turned around, cause we were all like all around him around this barricade put up around his chair and he was waving in my direction and I thought it was to me but there was this girl behind me and he was like oh well you’re all the way in the back I’m sorry, Janet (she was called Janet) and I saw that she was shorter than me so I was like okay fine, I’ll swap places with her, there you go, Janet. Like I have such little self-esteem that my band-related dreams are never going out with a member or whatever, but like being ignored and rejected by them x)

I dreamt that a kid and his little brother were out on our street around my house yelling for me and I was across the street at my grandparents’ place and then I told them I was there so they came over with this box of stuff and tried to sell me a bunch of like office supplies. And I didn’t want to buy anything but I let them say what they wanted to say and then told them I couldn’t buy anything at the moment but if they have any new stuff they should let me know.

And I shit you not this little guy flipped his shit. He started crying and throwing temper tantrums that I wasn’t buying anything and told me he was never going to sell me stuff again, so I tried to like be all manipulative like, if you don’t come back next time you won’t have sold me anything. You may have not sold me anything now but next time I’ll buy something, do you want to miss out on that? And he totally did not get it, and he started saying stuff like, he saw me naked through the window one night and how that would blackmail me and I was like pushing them outside by that time and smacked him in the head when he said that, and my frikkin’ grandma teleported behind me and said it’s wrong to hit children and I was like???? But grandmaaaa, he’s blackmailing me! And then it turned out he was 20 but he reached barely up to my hips he was so short and tiny.

And then I got scared that if they somehow tell their suppliers something false about me he knows where I live and would kill me in my sleep cause I didn’t buy office supplies.

And then I was in Destiny’s Child and we were doing this dance but differently somehow, and I was telling Beyoncé (because even in my own dreams I’m never Beyoncé) that we should do the proper version and then this guy appeared who smelled really good, that’s all I remember, Idk what he wanted.

And those were my dreams.

I dreamt that I was looking for my flag for the NBT concert and I kept finding old flags I took to other concerts and by the end of the dream I had like twenty flags for other bands but not one for NBT