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You forgot the “not”
no, i didn’t, actually.
this site is so goddamn anti-recovery. i’ve been spending years trying to get better but everyone’s mindset of “if you spend every hour of every day wanting to kill yourself you’re valid uwu” was just making my health worse. everyone on this site would be doing much better if they would stop being so negative.
it’s as if you want to stay mentally ill. you would think that people so miserable would want their lives to improve. if you want to get any better, stop rejecting every bit of positivity you see and forcing your toxic mindset on others.
Fake it till you make it is absolutely real and works.
If I could go from spineless, socially awkward, depressive, and suicidal to what I am today, you sure as hell can, you just need to make away with the excuses and take the first step. I don’t know all I know because I am “talented” or a “genius”, I just fucked up so many times that I know how to not fuck up in a million ways now. There’s no sin in tripping on a stone, the sin is to trip on the same stone again.
I am not saying it’s easy or pleasant to start the road to recovery, but it sure as hell is better than staying at the bottom of a sad shithole, and it sure as hell beats resigning yourself to suffering.
And for the love of whatever it is you hold dear, don’t beat yourself up for real. Self-deprecating humor treads a fine line between “just a joke” and “a really poor coping mechanism that is just constantly putting you down”. If you are good at something, be proud of it, and be happy about it, because not everyone is good at it. Surround yourself with friends who will actually celebrate your triumphs for you just as much as you celebrate theirs. I am not saying every day has to be a perpetual round of applause. People acknowledging your skills feels great, but you yourself feeling good about something feels amazing as well. Stay away from the bitter and envious ‘friends’ who just look at your achievements with a sour disposition.
And lastly, people really aren’t gauging you at all times. It’s hard for insecure people to believe this (and trust me, I know), because you think every little thing you do is being carefully, silently analyzed by everyone that saw it. It’s not the case. People really don’t do that in general. You do you.
Pass Through Fire 