is it shallow to want reactions and feedback?

okay google what to do if youre a creator but your mental illness stops you from creating and youre also jealous of other people who can create even with mental illnesses and you know the only thing you can do is to push through and create but you cant and that makes you so jealous of people who can that it double paralyses you and makes you seethe with rage and disappointment in yourself but then you remember that your creations werent getting attention back when you did create so you decide its got no point anyway WHAT THEN GOOGLE?!?!? WHAT THEN!?!?!?!