Last month my co-worker was furious as fuck that I didn’t report our workers’ days off in the system that calculates their salary accordingly to days missed and sick leaves and stuff, and yelled at me for twenty minutes that I should always do it during the third week of the month because if I do it on the last week it’ll be too late and the workers’ salaries won’t show it that month but a month later and there’ll be problems cause they’ll come in and demand we tell them why their next month’s salary is less and we’ll have to dig up month-old reports to prove they still got the money they should’ve.

So today, on the 29th of March the substitute supervisor of our workers comes in to tell me it’s raining so it’s a special kinda like… it’s not a day off, it’s not a sick leave, it’s when factors beyond the employees’ or employers’ control makes working impossible (like rain). They get a reduced salary for those days and they can go home.

So I tell this sub supervisor that okay, obviously, I’ll give him a form to get the workers to sign so we can show them they agreed to the reduced salary so there are no problems later. I also ask him to tell the workers that this reduction won’t show on their salaries until their April salary.

Obviously, then my co-worker barges in like why wouldn’t it show? So I tell her what she told me a literal month ago, that since this is happening today I can only report it to the system for calculation today and according to my co-worker the 29th of a month is too late. So then my co-worker proceeds to drag me in front of the sub supervisor that I’m an idiot and I’m spreading lies and fear among the workers.

Ugh, another dream where I’m starting high school from the beginning (with the same classmates) and my mum’s leaving me at the hostel except I already know everything and I’m thinking “this time I won’t waste my chance” hahahhahah

The other day dreamt that I tried to sneak into an old student hostel where I lived (but it looked different) and I acted like I belonged there so I could spend the night in town but I was so paranoid that someone would bust me x) And then I also dreamt that I was in bed with Liam O’Brien (we were playing dnd ok o_O, nothing naughty) and there was a huge spider above us on the ceiling and I wanted to kill it but Liam kept making fun of me for being scared of a spider.

And then I also dreamt that I was in a huge and sunny city that had a bunch of wide rivers going all across it and it was like going above and under these huge highways and I was like on a bicycle that is also a boat, idk it felt awesome.

Today I had

– two small coffees
– a cappuccino
– two fried chicken drumsticks (and I forgot to take off the skin, dumbass) with some rice
– a croissant
– a cup of milk
– and I’ve been drinking this 1-calorie orange juice that tastes like dog shit ngl

Me: okay, I need to get back to writing.
Brain: you’re not talented, you know that, right?
Me: yes, I know. Now, writing…
Brain: nobody’s ever gonna love you.
Me: writtttinggg… wordssss…. words….
Brain: you’ve gotten so fat.
Me: plot plot plot plot plot plot plot
Brain: you’re going to rot in this place you hate, you’ll rot here forever.
Me: *hands against my ears* I can’t hear you, I’m writing
Brain: nothing you do is valuable in any way.
Me: nOThign You Do iS VAlUaBle In aNY WaY

When your mum makes pained noises and can’t stop moaning in pain and then she sees how you look at her with worry and chuckles so you say “I can’t find your suffering funny when I could’ve helped all afternoon?” and then she tells you, irritated and angry to stop pissing her off? :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Fuck me I guess xD I just want my mum to not have to suffer a fucking spinal hernia lmao 😀 I actually want her to be able to work until she can retire and not have to spend her last years at work on welfare which will pretty much nullify her entire life’s work and put her on such a low pension that she won’t even be able to feed herself xD

BUT WHAT THE FUCK DO I KNOW

😀

I should just stop pissing her off x))))))))))

What the fuck am I to do when my mum has really bad back pain and I offer to do a million things for her like put hot salt on it, put some cream on it, give her a massage, etc etc then she takes ONE painkiller, is incredibly annoyed that it did nothing (since um you know the pain isn’t actually the problem, it’s just a symptom), and also gets annoyed at me when I offer my help…?