Tag: i ramble

First actual week of my diet is done and I’m feeling pretty okay? About it? I think it’s crucial that I don’t eat a lot for breakfast or that I don’t eat at all and I only have a small thing to keep me going until lunch. For lunch I usually try to do around ~400 calories and then I can have something sugary to drink along with my dinner. I know I would be smarter to only drink water because one ice coffee I usually drink every day is 230 calories, now that’s a proper breakfast but I just caaaaan’t. Stuff I can eat a lot of tastes like water and stuff that actually has taste is like a thousand calories so if the only really tasty thing I can have a day is ice coffee then I’ll have that por favor.

Monday: 1189 calories
okay this was because we had leftover cordon bleu and nectarines are like four hundred calories -.-
Tuesday: 915 calories
the saddest dinner when I only had like a thing of puffed rice for dinner x) but I had a croissant to snack on so it was okay. also this was when I decided I would scrap my morning cappuccino :[ it’s just not worth it, especially if i have ice coffee later.
Wednesday: 1039 calories
ham slices aren’t your friend. butter also wants to kill you.
Thursday: 1110 calories
seriously, two apples are like 200 calories, cAN I LIVE?!?!?! I did really well on fat that day though, only 20g. probably cause i only ate puffed rice and joghurt for lunch
Friday: 1045 calories
i literally only had like three bites of stacked potatoes cause we were gonna have takeout for dinner and i wanted to get a salad with some dressing and apparently dressings are the Devil. again the chocolate milk i had was like 248 calories everything else i had that day was less. pLEASE
Saturday: 1100 calories
a life where 20dkg mushroom stew is 350 calories is a world i dont want to live in
Sunday: on sINDAY I LIVE BY ONE RULE ONLY

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(gif courtesy of one doona-baes)

and now the big reveal…. 

I’M 90.3KG o/ I lost a whole 3 kilograms in 10 days cause I was… well I was pretty much starving myself and pushed myself beyond my limits to work out sometimes so I would not recommend that but yay!

Also edit from yesterday when I wrote most of this post, I actually told my grandparents to stop giving me ice coffee and only give me one ice coffee on Sundays cause… fuck it, ~200 calories is a LOT. THE SACRIFICES.

Okay so first I dreamt a few things whose true meaning is a mystery.

First I dreamt that Critical Role was down a few members so while they were away a group of Hungarians took their place (Matt remained the DM) and an old high school classmate of mine (not the one I usually dream about) was on the team as well. But they never really said their names I guess cause it was Hungarian and English-speakers can’t pronounce Hungarian for Shit.

Anyway then I think a family member of mine died(???) as well but I don’t remember that part but then this guy, the classmate was like lying down on a bed in our old house and in our old living room and everything looked like it usually did and I was like, lying down next to him and I had my hand on his chest and it was Really Nice. And when he fell asleep I kept like wanting to be the little spoon but he never positioned the right way, so fuck you, classmate.

And then I was going by bus to this small town and I had my bike with me for some reason. I had some food in a small and cozy restaurant and I found out my next bus was coming at like 10:10 or 10:50 or some shit. So I went exploring in town and I met this girl now her name was either Jenny or some other folk-y idk name that starts with J and she was a policewoman and she looked like fucking… whatsherface… Ethan’s wife in Mission Impossible. Michelle Monaghan! But she was blonde and kinda shy and I was laying it on her Hard okay, I was Flirting like I’ve never flirted before cause I’ve never flirted in my life.

Anyway she was cute af and then as I was walking back to the bus station, it was night (which is weird cause my bus was going at 10 something AM) anyway and like I pulled her into this secluded area on the side of the road and long story short she was Feelin’ It. So then she told me she was in a band, like a brass band or whatever and they were having a concert the next day but she was so scared and being the good girlfriend that I am (we weren’t girlfriends but c’mon) I was like encouraging her n stuff.

And then this other policewoman came up to me and she grabbed my bike and she was like “this is my bike” and I was like no it ain’t and I tried to like tell her things about my bike that are very specific like noises the chain makes and weird ways the pedal moves to prove that it was my bike but nothing came to my mind so I convinced her to let me take the bike to the bus station and then leave it at like platform 4 or wherever my bus was at.

So she did, and by the time I got to this town square thing with my girl Jenny it was morning again and suddenly the whole fucking brass band was there and I said goodbye to her and wished her luck one last time and we took cute couple selfies it was CUTE OKAY.

But then I realised that this town square thing where the theatre was where my girl Jenny was gonna perform was 18.8km away from the bus station and my fucking bike had a flat tire.

Me, stumbling out of bed at 7AM feeling like Iv’e just been beaten to death: mum, why didn’t you wake me up?
Mum: I thought you were awake
Me: what made you think that? (also note my work starts at 7:30)
Mum: you were awake this time on Monday!
Me: IT’S NOT MONDAY ;_;
Mum: you need to tell me beforehand if you want me to wake you up
Me: like when I repeatedly ask you to wake me up at 6:30?

i tell everyone im 93kg so i can feel better when they’re in disbelief saying i don’t look like i weigh that much cause thats the only thing that makes me feel better about myself x)

I dreamt like so many weird things I didn’t sleep well at all. I was in a mall but it was huge and possibly also an airport and there were all these stores and then one storefront was open and two guys were there, one sitting on a chair and one standing, one looked more casual the other one was like all formally dressed. And I knew that they were like security people and if you’re like attacked or harmed then you can go to them.

So then I did go to them even though nothing happened to me and once I entered they were like, oh we have like, a client, and these lawyer-looking dudes all stood up from next to like this reception area and sat with me next to a long-ass table, but then other clients were there too by other tables with other lawyer-looking dudes. And I realised that I either forgot what happened to me or I was just coming in jokingly and I had to come up with something so I did, and then the lawyers told me I’d have to come back at a later date to continue the investigation but I was gonna be in London at the time (where did I get that from I wonder :D) and this one lawyer in front of me was like, ma’am if you want to get to the bottom of this (idk what I actually said happened to me x)) you’ll have to sacrifice a few things. But then I realised holy shit, this is the perfect time to get out of this and then I acted all dramatic like, *theatrical forehead-slap* I cannot do this anymore, and it wouldn’t be fair with other people who need help and I walked out. o_o

And then Mira was there but she was like running from me x) and once I caught up with her (this was still in the mall by the way) she was up one floor on a balcony and the way up to the railing was really steep and I kept slipping down and then slipping even further away once I was on horizontal floor and people were looking at me weird while I kept leaving my phone and my other stuff behind being unable to catch them.

And then I was in my grandma’s house that we sold but it was also our house here? Anyway we were moving and I was getting all nostalgic about it and once I mentioned to my mum something about moving and she got angry with me like I just pissed her off with mentioning the very obvious thing we were already doing. And then we were outside our house now and Giules was there with a friend of hers who then left and we came inside and I tried to tell her how unjustly pissed off my mum was but she kept coming in x) 

And also Giules was moving with us to this village in the middle of nowhere but it was actually really pleasant and then my mum adopted her so she became my sister.

That was all the dream.