Tag: i ramble

So you know how I have these monthly playlists where I put all the songs I’ve listened to that month in a neat little playlist and it’s really nice cause it’s a project that’s been going for over a year and I still haven’t given up on it? Yeah. The way I do it is I usually lump every song in a big playlist called “2018 Artists to Check Out” even if I already know the artists, and then I pick out my favourites and make a separate month-specific list. The way i know what songs belong to which month is by checking the date when I added them so for my August playlist I would have to look at all the songs I added in August, pretty simple, right?

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WELL I DON’T ffFFUKKEN HAVE ANY CAUSE I BEEN LISTENING TO BTS ALL MONTH

Week #2 of “Tia wants to be 65kg”

Monday

  • 1283 calories (because I ate pasta and regretted it greatly. I made up for it throughout the rest of the week though!)
  • 75 situps 75 squats

Tuesday

  • 900 calories (unfortunately I still haven’t found an alternative to water :/ all the “lite” stuff for my favourite sodas and fruit juices taste like crap so water it is :/)
  • 85 situps 100 squats

Wednesday

  • 800 calories (it’s so easy to eat little when all you eat is yoghurts. also peach yoghurt? i feel severely betrayed, it tastes like crap, i honestly rather eat raspberry yoghurts… yeah you heard me.)
  • 100 situps 100 squats

Thursday

  • 755 calories (soon i shan’t need nutrition at all!)
  • 101 situps 101 squats

Friday

  • 812 calories (i was bad and ate a croissant. it was really tasty.)
  • 125 situps and light workout for a good hour

Saturday

  • 628 calories (i drank some cola o_o and then i wasn’t hungry for dinner at all but i really don’t want to starve myself so i ate some egg whites and a yoghurt. to stay healthy!)
  • 150 situps 150 squats (im actually writing this before doing them but i have faith in myself.) (edit I actually did do them o/)

And with the exception of Monday (when I technically OD’d on carbs because pasta wants me dead) I managed to reach the minimal recommended daily protein intake AND stay below the maximum recommended daily carb and fat intake so yay!

And now…

the reveal…….

88.7 kg! I lost an additional 1.6kg compared to last week’s 90.3kg and 4.6kg in 19 days.

Bitch I’m proud.

I had such a long and weird dream. I don’t even know where it started but the point of it was that it was a story I was experiencing from the outside like a movie or a novel but then I got into it. It was a horror story I wish I could describe more but that part’s slipped away. Either way my sister figured out what the big twist was going to be it was something about dead bodies being buried in a certain place to do something? To bring them back as ghosts who serve a higher power?

Then someone started explaining it and I was like stop fucking explaining it I want to be mindfucked when the story gets to that part. But then it turned out that Michelle Pfeiffer (don’t ask) was telling that story and I was in bed with him under a very dark sky and I was already part of the story.

The bed was in this really creepy place. The sky was so cloudy and dark and the fog was so thick on the ground it almost felt like it wasn’t even outside but there were all these naked trees that looked like weird creatures… bits and pieces are slipping away already but at one point I was flying above this cemetery, supposedly where the dead bodies were being buried and there were these huge craters on the ground and on the hillside and in the sky and when i got closer to them they opened up to be these enormous bloodshot eyeballs staring at me, it was horrific.

Eventually I ended up going to this old dude in this small village, very medieval style, who was a living ~senile old scientist trope and we needed his help with something. Michelle Pfeiffer was gone (she was also one of the people who died and got buried to be brought back I think) but my sister was there, my mum too, a little girl, and um… how do I say this next part with a serious tone… Taehyung from BTS was also there x)

Anyway… so this dude was giving us confusing wisdom as his archetype usually does but when night fell we couldn’t leave his house anymore (the base was wooden but the roofs were webbing tarps or whatever, it was weird, I helped him put up new lights and two of them were glowstone blocks from Minecraft I honestly envy my sleeping brain for weaving these stories, they’re more interesting than anything I’ll ever write).

And he said that people will come to inspect him soon and the four of us (my sister, me, the little girl and fucking TAEHYUNG from BTS :’D) had to act like we were his children and my mum had to hide in the basement. But my mum in real life coughs a lot these days so I was legit worried what will happen if she starts coughing in the basement so I decided I would cough and then mask her coughing. Some other woman was there, a shorter curly-haired girl who then actually was our real mother? My sleeping brain threw her out of the dream fast but she was there at one point.

So at one point the dude’s house looked very much like my current house x) and the “kids” were all like hugging like oh no this sucks we have to be in this mess and whatever and I asked Taehyung what his real name was and he said Kent.

…

He said it was Kent written with a K because that’s how elves write it (hint that Taehyung might be an elf? could be!) and the whole time he was talking I saw subtitles at the bottom of my vision, a definite sign that I’m watching too many BTS videos :’D

Anyway as the lights went out we were sitting outside the house on this bench waiting for the inspectors that I imagined as the Black Riders from LoTR some more stuff started seeping in, for example it got bright, it was the next day which is not when they were supposed to come, plus there was a small car outside next to a sign abour head-height that said something about Logan Paul, maybe his face was on it too, and it was a joke thing the McElroy brothers did as they travelled around the world, they stuck the board in the ground and took photos of it. But the car was still there so I asked my sister if she thought the McElroys were still there and also asked her to take a photo of the board since my phone wasn’t charged and then my sister made a comment like… we can’t because we’re in the story now and we have to wait for the inspection.

It was really weird how towards the end it started going back to me experiencing the story as a movie instead of being in it. Then my real life real mum woke me up and I’m really glad because knowing myself that inspection would’ve been fucked up.

im so fed up with people’s bullshit it’s incredible.

so there’s this ceremony every august 20th where we like give rewards and plaques and stuff to people who’s done something for the community. it’s usually people who are well-known in the village, teachers, football…. coaches…… or like sports people or musicians who’ve won awards or whatever.

this year public servants who work in the mayor’s office (where i work but i’m not one) also get awarded. three of them, specifically. i’m the one responsible for writing and sending out the invitations but this year when i got the list from one of my employees who actually get awarded, she told me they (the public servants) don’t need to get one. she was very hush-hush about it, so i was like okay well i guess they’ll be notified differently i mean they work within two rooms from each other obviously they’ll know about it.

once the other invitations were sent out, the two other employees asked me if they were on the list and i told them they were but colleague #1 told me the three of them don’t need to get invitations so i figured they’d be notified through other means.

now my boss obviously said it’s bullshit and everyone should’ve got invitations. also something i pretty much figured but what do i do then? go to my boss and ask him if the three colleagues also need to get invitations because colleague #1 told me they don’t? i’d just throw her under the bus by telling our boss she said they don’t need to get invitations.

a theory: i fucking misunderstood and maybe she just said she doesn’t need to get an invitation. but dO I LOOK LIKE I FUCKIN KNOW THAT?

i’m so fucking fed up, when someone hears they’re on the invitation list they all come to me like “don’t print my invitation, don’t send me one, don’t, i don’t want it” and this shit fucking ends up happening. next time someone (especially this fucking co-worker who i bet will get all up my ass about this because she thinks i’m lying even though either she’s lying or i misunderstood something fOR WHICH I’M NOT AT FUCKING FAULT cause she was the one messing with what i was going to do the way i was supposed to, she always tells me not to send her invitations…) asks me not to send them an invitation i’m gonna kick them out of my fucking office, everyone who’s on the list gets a fucking invitation and y’all can shut your asses.