Tag: diet cw

I’m ready for the Sweet Release #6

This week is hard but not because of the diet or the workout but because of my mental state which is not ideal. It’s really hard to get myself to move when I’m hungry and sad but so far I haven’t skipped a day of workout which is still something to be proud of. (Edit from Saturday: How fucking ironic huh… -.-) Also I eat when I’m stressed and I have more than enough reasons to be stressed the fuck out right now so triple props for my steel willpower. Also I have to remind myself that I’m very close to dipping below 80kg for the first time in like… four years which I hope will just give me another confidence boost.

I wish I could try running but my anxiety is keeping me inside which is #sad. My cousin actually goes for a run regularly but her laps around the village are way too huge so even though I would love to go with her I’ve also seen her run and I’d just slow her down so it’s a big no-no. Still I wonder how I’d do at running now that I’ve built the tiniest bit of stamina even though it would kill my spine. I also want to do more dumbbell lunges cause I feel like I can but my heart speeds up so crazy fast I’m scared to do more than 30 :[

Also I should drink way more than I do. I drink criminally little, I should be locked up and forced to drink water all day. Sorry, mum!

Monday – 613 calories (chicken is so good for proteins bruh)
Tuesday – 641 calories (i ate a greek yoghurt and it was nothing special)
Wednesday – 657 calories (fIESH)
Thursday – 579 calories (i was v high and laughed through my whole workout routine AND skipped dumbbell lunges cause i just couldnt)
Friday – 760 calories (i dont know exactly because the salad i had isnt like… i dont have the details for it but :[[[[ im also skipping workout today because im very much in pain a lot)
Saturday – 681 calories, also doubled all my workout since I skipped it yesterday (I might still do another set later in the evening to Satisfy Myself, that fucking salad yesterday tasted like GUILT) so that’s 50 squats, 300 situps, 100 curls, 60 dumbbell lunges, 50 squats again (x 1.5 if I do another one later but honestly my legs are trembling so probably not x)) (edit: i didn’t x) I might do a double today again just to even it out)

So I was 84kg last time so obviously at least 83kg is the goal, but if I could mosey closer to a 82.5kg that’d really fuckin…. man, that’d really activate my dopamine receptors.

AND NOW

the results….

82.6kg o/

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That’s a whopping 1.4kg gone since last week which is Neat.

I’m gonna completely skip workout for the first time since I started my diet because today has been so long and I’m so tired and in pain and I need someone to tell me that it’s okay and I’m not horrible :[

SQUASH! Week #5

(Edit: Initially I had a different title for this week’s summary but then I made a good decision. And ate a lot of squash.)

Well this week is starting out shite. I know I gotta be patient with the arm workout and it might take longer than two weeks to see any change but it’s disheartening to see how weak I am in my arms still. On Tuesday I gave up pushup training because it’s too hard on my spine and well, I don’t want to fully cripple myself just yet. I’m doing chest presses now for 30 minutes which is not even nearly as effective but at least I feel like I’m going something. Also tried doing 30 dumbbell lunges instead of 15 and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. Idk if dumbbell lunges are supposed to be cardio but it gets my fucking heart going like a Bitch.

Ideally I’ll be under 85kg this Sunday (btw I’m writing these updates throughout the week so don’t be confused that the beginning of the post sounds like the beginning of the week and the end is on Sunday) so I did some calculating and ideally I’d be 80kg on October 13th, 75kg on November 17th, 70kg on December 22nd (just in time for Christmas yay? this is gonna be a sad Christmas x)) and then I’ll see how I like that and if I don’t I’ll try to go for 65kg in January.

I also gave some thought to bouncing back, obviously don’t want my body to think once it hit the ideal weight it can just hold on to any odd calorie I give it so I want to gradually increase my daily intake until I reach a good 1500 calories a day (say increase my daily intake by 200calories every month and monitor how my body likes it). But that’s still far away.

I’m looking into other exercises I could do and excuse me but what the fuck is a burpee? Just call it what it really is, a négyütemű fekvőtámasz.

Also this Sunday I’m gonna have spaghetti!

Monday – 618 calories (didn’t have dinner, yoghurt tasted like shit)
Tuesday – 707 calories (i had a whole kinder maxi king!!! ♥♥)
Wednesday – 697 calories (chickennnnn)
Thursday – 688 calories (im tireddddd. also chickennnn)
Friday – 646 calories (squash is a beautiful thing. also it was really hard to work out today cause i was Medicated. not in the weed way but the pleasantly tingly and then insanely numb due to painkillers way.)
Saturday – 658 calories (SQUASH)
see I haven’t eaten below 600 calories this week, I’m good!

Also out of curiosity I thought I’d see how much I’ve eaten every week on average so far. 
Week 1: 1198kcal/day (8391/week)
Week 2: 908kcal/day (6358/week)
Week 3: 722kcal/day (5055/week)
Week 4: 733kcal/day (5137/week) are you kidding me I felt like I ate super little that week o_o
Week 5: 712kcal/day (4990/week) #ideal (that is if I can keep below 1000 calories today x))

For some reason I feel like I didn’t lose any weight this week. I don’t know it’s just not… visible, ya know? Idk either way let’s… let’s fucking see huh…

84kg! o/ Or rather… well at first it showed 83.6kg but then it showed 84 too and then 83.6 again on multiple occasions but I refuse to believe I lost more than 2kg in one week. Imma say I probably had a miscalculation like last week or something and I’ll roll with 84kg which means I almost lost 10kg since my starting point (93.3kg).

That’s pretty good I guess ayyyyyyy o/

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i put a yoghurt in the fridge last friday and since i didnt have dinner last night i brought an apple to work and thought id eat it with my yoghurt but someone FUCKING ATE MY YOGHURT. im a sweet potato and a protein shake away from doing the real iu diet 

Dear GOD this sandwich I just had was beautiful. Also about 450 calories but it don’t matter, I’m happy. I haven’t had bread in over a month, I had fucking, a sausage, dude? Proper, homemade sausage, good lord and a CHEESE.

I forgot I could eat breakfast today so I tried sleeping in but I was up at 5AM and angry at myself knowing I’d get hungry before lunch but then I checked my calorie site and it says I can even drink milk for breakfast on top of three bread things (it’s a different brand this time, it’s a little thicker and chewier and one piece has more calories than the brand I usually get) so now I’m really happy.