its so haaarddddd to not…. like completely believe that everybody hates me and nobody wants to be with me. and the worst thing of all is that i cant even manage that like when im fighting these bad feelings i never fight to not feel them because its impossible and its never going to work. its just to pretend like i dont believe it. which i completely do. so like… act like you dont want to curl up in a ball and cry because everybody hates you. its the weirdest fukkken feeling……. like… just be normal just for a day, please. just act like you’re not a complete freak.