the problem with “depression isn’t being sad all the time and not being able to think about anything other than how numb and horrible you feel all the time” is that what if it is? what if thats all i do lol how am i supposed to be out in public being neurotypical-passing like this

like i look at people who are open about their depression, look at them be out in public and have fun and stuff and i just cant believe how its possible and im so jealous lol i just want to cry when i have to leave the house even when its for something i actually want to do, how

like i know its not easy and i know just because they look “normal” they havent stopped struggling but they can still do things. i also want to do things. alexa download tutorial for doing things