Do you know how like…….. most of the confidence-y boosty things are about like… accepting yourself and being shamelessly yourself and standing up to anyone who might want to stop you or make you ashamed of who you are and I could never quite relate to that because… I can’t accept myself and I can’t shamelessly be myself because I’m nothing. I don’t have dreams, I don’t have ambitions, the only hint of a personality I have is patchworks of fictional characters so it’s like… nobody’s really attacking me. I don’t have to defend myself and brave any weather cause there is none. I just am. And what I am is nothing. There’s nothing to be about me. Even if I loved myself I’d still be nothing and I’d still be going nowhere. You know?